courtyard complex the buttress to the houseless the city’s many arteries running red so i went for a coffee sat reading in the bookstore and the led lights they flicker and down the light i go rock and roll to the viper room and they’ve been there all along in the clubs, in the bars, in the car crumbles left of frayed juul pods and starbucks lids and taco bell sauce in this blizzard all of this noise, if you think about it if you ever have the time for a minute your heart so chill to a beat so chill so far, it’s nothing heard backstage dressing rooms there’s a secret door the library that i never would have seen without the cuts, the carpet carpet was old, full of ghosts but felt like yesterday and the led lights they flicker and down the light i go rock and roll to the viper room and they’ve been there all along in the clubs, in the bars, in the car crumbles left of frayed juul pods and starbucks lids and taco bell sauce in this blizzard all of this noise, if you think about it if you ever have the time for a minute your heart so chill to a beat so chill so far, it’s nothing heard rock and roll to the viper room and they’ve been there all along in the clubs, in the bars, in the car crumbles left of frayed juul pods and starbucks lids and taco bell sauce in this blizzard all of this noise, if you think about it if you ever have the time for a minute your heart so chill to a beat so chill so far, it’s nothing heard

distant time so strange head up on a railroad waiting for the train sitting like John Prine on hay while acrobats with tobacco plants sweating and making it rain black distant time so strange singing together to Needle in the Hay while we argue fonts and nonsense beating the wind as it tries to hold us back the sun burned the sunburn the sun burnt me up and the sun burned the sunburn the sun burnt me up oh, i’m sprung out on the bed in the middle of my heart i have here the courage all i was seeing was the architecture the city in the pixels, so strange that it all that so strange how uncertain dark clouds roll in, wants to take me with him all i was seeing was the architecture the city in the pixels, so strange that it all (i saw myself on the big screen way above the doorway) that so strange how uncertain dark clouds roll in, wants to take me with him (and there was a smiley sticker on my shirt i wore like a badge) this here, i’d say, this here is my mirror its here, i guess, if my mind is wondering how many ways you could go how many ways you could go and the sun burned the sunburn the sun burnt me up and the sun burned the sunburn the sun burnt me up and the sun burned the sunburn the sun burnt me up oh, i’m sprung out on the bed in the middle of my heart i have here the courage to roar it was narrow but i did it i came out of the canyon i escaped it, i escaped it i’m alive for the first time so the sky’s opening up will i make it to work and make it something in this life it was narrow but i did it i came out of the canyon i escaped it, i escaped it i’m alive for the first-- all i was seeing was the architecture the city in the pixels, so strange that it all that so strange how uncertain dark clouds roll in, wants to take me with him

times are crazy running on e so many places looking like they’re fading you’re not a diamond in the rough no more barely making enough, barely making anything middle of nowhere, firefly field burnt out the talk around the trees is nothing’s left to see and mother’s barely breathing everybody on the road is trying to kill me everybody on the road is trying to kill me one of many chemicals cotton candy lost intentionally in a labyrinthine of evergreen you’re not adrift in the current no more barely got enough to lose yourself, barely making anything middle of nowhere, firefly field burnt out the talk around the trees is nothing’s left to see and mother’s barely breathing everybody on the road is trying to kill me everybody on the road is trying to kill me take it day by day, barely spending anything take it day by day, barely spending anything take it day by day, barely spending anything (how many more years until i find that peace?) middle of nowhere, firefly field burnt out the talk around the trees is nothing’s left to see and mother’s barely breathing everybody on the road is trying to kill me everybody on the road is trying to kill me everybody on the road is trying to kill me middle of nowhere, firefly field burnt out the talk around the trees is nothing’s left to see and mother’s barely breathing everybody on the road is trying to kill me everybody on the road is trying to kill me

we were hanging in her bedroom the window looked out to the hospital we were both born in she told me about the devil’s visit sitting by her bedside so quiet so she pushed her bed against the wall and she asked me to sleep on the floor and it became a habit for a year or more Green Day poster above me a pirate skull lava lamp from the dollar store a lucifer rising delicate in the grain it makes no sense, but only just yet the rebuttal to your psychologist this empty status, this pitted stomach i haven’t seen her in so long i no longer find any interest in mutual songs it seems like a dream written in appalachian blood but i know she’s found her foundation in her own little one it’s so hard to be vulnerable i threw so much shit out the window myself but you gave me hope or what is left so i know they feel love a lucifer that’s rising so delicate in the grain, it makes no sense, but soon it will the only promise not to break is with yourself so put that razorblade down, girl, you got love left put that razorblade down, girl, you got love left and she asked me to sleep on the floor and it became a habit for a year or more Green Day poster above me a pirate skull lava lamp from the dollar store a lucifer rising delicate in the grain it makes no sense, but only just yet the rebuttal to your psychologist this empty status, this pitted stomach

the hills they look like quilts in the autumn i swear if you stare long enough at them its like a night out on bald mountain escape if you must, but faust done cut his deal and he’s running up that hill with cuts on the heels bad taste fantasia when that serotonin kicks his ass so many skins that shed, they’re blowing in the wind can’t take it all in, can’t handle the weight of your sin there’s a chorus as they’re driving off the fucking roads they can’t take the pressure from the heat that’s cracking like the crow’s feet underneath these eyes i’m only 31 years old and i’m meeting with the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill put my faith in the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill seven statues when i get off the ship Fitzcarraldo’s playing coming from afar pathaway of golden brick surrounded by cacti and the palace door with the chessboard floor a knight in armor with a limp sword dog day september but its only june so many skins that shed, they’re blowing in the wind can’t take it all in, can’t handle the weight of your sin a sonata as they’re dying from the goddam flu wishing on a star, like its old news might as well wish on your fellow person falling down just like you and i’m meeting with the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill put my faith in the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill perfect game as i mess up my shame in purgatory, i swear if i cared no more then i just might find a way out the canyon escape in a fantasy, that’s what they say i’m flying spirit above the devils with their pseudo wings and i’m meeting with the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill i’m meeting with the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill put my faith in the preacher on chapel hill chapel hill, chapel hill, chapel hill the hills they look like quilts in the autumn i swear if you stare long enough at them its like a night out on bald mountain escape if you must / bobby and grace made the bed that was more than six feet they laugh ‘cause they don’t know what the hell they’re doing and they’re deader than most of anyone i know and they said that they couldn’t help me now you can’t be healed without a soul and he said i see right through you you’re deader than most of anyone i’ve ever met and he said sorry, can’t help you can’t be healed if you’re done giving your soul away and so he placed an egg to light the sky more shades than the rainbow left on high flashes of the serpent, electricity with a crown of feather and a bone so dry omen of sin, there’s never time omen of the neck with a snake bite omen of the tar black from the fry no such thing as time, there’s no such thing as time so much lost in the air on its way to you they don’t fucking care, they don’t fucking care

there’s a portrait underwater long ago washed split on the corners, but the paint hasn’t chipped off cuz there she’s smiling like she hasn’t done for fuck knows how long and she’s smiling cuz she doesn’t have to know a thing about herself and there we’ve come, and where we’ve dropped if we feel our way across the skies and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away the emotion, water rising in unison where we’ve come and where we’ve gone stare in the deepest of water, deep in the stars where they dry like when tears fall, we’re staying in the great all cuz there she’s smiling like she hasn’t done for fuck knows how long and she’s smiling cuz she doesn’t have to know a thing about herself and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away our minds the water will rise and there we’ve come, and where we’ve dropped if we feel our way across the skies and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away the emotion, water rising in unison where we’ve come and where we’ve gone cuz there she’s smiling like she hasn’t done for fuck knows how long and she’s smiling cuz she doesn’t have to know a thing about herself and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away our minds the water will rise and there we’ve come, and where we’ve dropped if we feel our way across the skies and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away the emotion, water rising in unison where we’ve come and where we’ve gone there’s no price tag on the iron of our hearts there’s no price tag on the iron of our hearts there’s no price tag on the iron of our hearts there’s no price tag on the iron of our hearts and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away our minds the water will rise and there we’ve come, and where we’ve dropped if we feel our way across the skies and there’s no price tag on emotion, bitches if we melt away the emotion, water rising in unison where we’ve come and where we’ve gone

security was flirting with the receptionist some nurses laughing about the virus the tv in the waiting room a commercial for the company i got injured at like Kirsten Dunst stuck in the mud in slow mo i’m probably sure, a millennial moving in mono a closing shift, a collision of what the fuck ever goddam planet just the two of us sitting there in a waiting room so bare and omicron is raging on electric was out for the evening while working cars not stopping at intersections Peggy’s LP! as i’m zoning into headlights fuck, its like country roads i once wrecked at like Kirsten Dunst stuck in the mud in slow mo i’m probably sure, a millennial moving in mono a closing shift, a collision of what the fuck ever goddam planet just the two of us sitting there in a waiting room so bare and omicron is raging on and omicron is raging on omicron is raging on omicron is raging on omicron is raging on omicron is raging on omicron is raging on security was flirting with the receptionist some nurses laughing about the virus the tv in the waiting room a commercial for the company i got injured at so doctor hollowed be your pain, i guess looks like you’ve been working past your quit and baby’s birthday is at midnight

she’s been working this office for a decade now didn’t even acknowledge it, but somehow gives it her all, gives her trust if she’s good they all must be, they must she makes it all feel, the weak ones make her heart ache she’ll hit the main street bar again, after working so fucking hard the hour lunch that she spends, such a blessing, she says to herself as she lays her feet into the water of the Ohio River, the dock where--- she’s been popping ativan for a lifetime now became a diet Faye just to get through college unscathed she gave it her all, she’d sometimes be confused by the noise but she feels good, they must she makes it all feel a little more good but she’s in to fail the test, and its doing right and the weak ones, they are, she says to herself she’ll hit the main street bar again, and get over it she’s been following jesus for about a lifetime now became a diet Faye just to get through she gave it her all, she’d sometimes be confused by the noise if she’s good, they all must be, they must--- she thanks jesus before walking out to the dock feet in the river, cars over the bridge making noise that sounds so different the older she gets this city, this city, feet in the river this city, this city, this city the weak ones make her heart ache she’ll hit the main street bar again, after working so fucking hard the hour lunch that she spends, such a blessing, she says to herself as she lays her feet into the water of the Ohio River, the dock where---

wanna stick my head out in the heat like an a24 movie construction down 32, power lines still from yesterday’s news my americano breath, and we stop to get high in the cemetery argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach we stop by the cemetery to get high argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach kids with guns like an echo slowly sure they’re since the new age you saw since ’99 on the farm away from them all before gold leaf, how’d you turn to data? a dream in chorus, that sexy strange voice in the city so drunk on dreams so disproportionate you’re not a catwalk, you dream, boy can’t believe you thought you were so unique, boy he’s a failed promise, blood all over this shirt he’s so fucking hard at work, put that smile on your face he’s a failed promise and we stop to get high in the cemetery argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach we stop by the cemetery to get high argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach we stop to get high in the cemetery argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach we stop by the cemetery to get high argue endlessly, pointlessly Demon Days vs. Plastic Beach

i knew my heart was good i knew that i was misunderstood i knew deep down most are good but i’m changing what i understood because fucking snakes so many fucking snakes poison running through me heroin in the seed and i wanna go way past the flake i know that i really need it i’ve come so late, the lives are ending they’re all reaching, here we go straight into the fire into the fire, into the fire and there’s a opposite to a facet of that opposite facet of that and here we go straight into the fire straight into the fire a dome bursting, waterfall crush deep in the heart, bursting like the titanic dome bursting a waterfall crush i knew my heart was good though i’ve been misunderstood myself ‘cause fucking snakes so many fucking snakes so many fucking snakes have poison running through me heroin in the seed and i'm far past the weeds but its still clinging to my feet and i’ve tried to stay looking forward but every year that i grow older i’m looking at a sea of debris emotions stacking i’m having a hard time having a hard time i’ve come so late, the lives are ending they’re all reaching, here we go straight into the fire into the fire, into the fire and there’s a opposite to a facet of that opposite facet of that and here we go straight into the fire straight into the fire a never-ending soundbite miracle worker spun and plastered angel on the dresser spun and plastered angel on the dresser no fucking price tag on emotion, bitch i’ve come so late, the lives are ending they’re all reaching, here we go straight into the fire into the fire, into the fire and there’s a opposite to a facet of that opposite facet of that and here we go straight into the fire straight into the fire into the fire

this crazy bitch from another dimension came in for a visit and she said if i ever get lost, the heart of it all that’s where i can find her again text to speech, crystals charging stepping over one another through liminal space this crazy experience, its like a freak train lives going by so fast and this here this here this here this here this here this here oh, and this here all you see at my feet this glitter, shards of glass snow white noise, dandruff dust in the sunlight, puzzle pieces all over the right moves i’ll turn into a goddam colosseum all i see, seeing was the city so fake a minidv with pixels like the glitter you see at my feet but i’m no longer dreaming the bad dream i’m dreaming of you bursting through like deja vu, pagemaster its beautiful and fake like pagemaster its beautiful and fake its all in what you think today i noticed you crying outside with a blunt and i know more now than i did when i was so fucking you and dumb this crazy bitch from another dimension came in for a visit and she said if i ever get lost, the heart of it all that’s where i can find her again text to speech, crystals charging stepping over one another through liminal space this crazy experience, its like a freak train lives going by so fast and this here this here this here this here this here all you see at my feet this glitter, shards of glass snow white noise, dandruff dust in the sunlight, puzzle pieces all over the right moves i’ll turn into a goddam colosseum all i see, seeing was the city so fake a minidv with pixels like the glitter you see at my feet but i’m no longer dreaming the bad dream i’m dreaming of you today i noticed you crying outside with a blunt and i know more now than i did when i was so fucking you and dumb all of the right moves, i’ll turn into a fucking colosseum all i see, seeing was the city so fake a minidv with pixels like the glitter you see at my feet but i’m no longer dreaming---

i leave my vape plugged in to use as a leash cuz i’m always losing things heard a whistle outside from away thought it was a bomb kinda have to laugh kinda have to dream where i was in a most sight so unseen i’m not caught up in the land of the blood the gore i tread through just to stick with the quo woah, what a time to be alive what a time to be aware faster, faster, faster, you bastard la la la faster, faster, faster, you bastard la la la heard a rumble of housekeeping convinced myself it was fake thought it was the bomb, though i’m faking the fake i’ve been your height i’m a third eye where i was in a most sight so unseen i’m not caught up in the land of the blood the gore i tread through just to stick with the quo woah, what a time to be alive what a time to be aware my object permanence is such a bitch but i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken i’m still running even tho i’m broken oh, look at the storefronts look at the gorgeous robbery that Hayswood abandoned lobotomies that they stopped when the booming 70s had them fucking like fucking rabbits just to rush to the top holy shit, here we go again on the 125 i’m not caught up in the land of the blood the gore i tread through just to stick with the quo woah, what a time to be alive what a time to be aware i thought i made it so far, but whew i thought i made it so far from home but it was a lie