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Godfuckingdammit
13:49
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we flew once, we drove the next
we’re settled and, i can’t say i regret it
yet i do, too, a mixed signal
wanna go back, but don’t
due of all my pitfalls
i know it’s not easy, to put fault on me
god knew that i can lay myself out
throw out my back, go back to work
soulless and selfish, deluded and broken
and aimless, and gorgeous
the same crash course that i walk through
years ago, waiting for the same old big nothing
i am, i am, i am, i am you
once spiritual, thus ignorant
and you choose, what you know
formed by the above
god is the witness, i was in your shoes, yes i was
i was in the shoes on the telephone poles
and the only thing i know, is exactly what you don’t
it always takes me, more than a few years
staring in my rearview mirror
white noise fades away
objects become clear, the closer they get
photos under chemical in a dark room
soulless and selfish, deluded and broken
and aimless, and gorgeous
the same crash course that i walk through
years ago, waiting for the same old big nothing
i am, i am, i am, i am you
texted me, and i texted back
haven’t heard from him in a long time
took a year before i saw my message was unsent
thinking he thinks i forget
seems communication’s never been a strong point for me
even though i express myself, under the mask of auteur
there’s mountains, there’s evergreen
calling out my name i shared with my dad
like these sidewalks, that he walked
how did i cycle it all back
in a poem so unintentional
getting lost, in digital chessboards
for about a year now, so many scholars mates
used to drive me crazy, until i made peace
with the way the other souls float by
not everybody, can be the same
how else could we, join our hands
(harper, angel)
soulless and selfish, deluded and broken
and aimless, and gorgeous
the same crash course that i walk through
years ago, waiting for the same old big nothing
(crowning achievement is wrapped in those kindergarten ‘i am’ poems)
i am, i am, i am, i am you
(‘i am’ poems)
i got a buzz in how the words fall
so has the years went so slowly by
in the blink of an eye, anything in my mind’s eye
people around me, inside me, remakes of other stories
things that really upset the wavelength
searching constantly for that red door
with a sidewalk of marbled chessboard
slower, faster, no control
why do we take over such a cannonball
when it doesn’t have a flame that can be sparkless
i’m too busy stimming
projector full of images i’m firing constantly
(stimming)
chaotic in the eye of the storm
...
years ago, waiting for the same old big nothing
(i could really be nothing)
i am, i am, i am, i am you
(crashing like Cronenberg)
i am, i am, i am, i am a creator
(big nothing)
i am , i am, i am, i am a hyperlinked ego
i am, i am, i am, i am nothing like you
i am, i am, i am, i am nothing like you
i am, i am, i am
i am, i am, i am
now you know what its like
to plug your mode, and
realize you are also so...
soulless and selfish, deluded and broken
and aimless, and gorgeous
the same crash course that i walk through
years ago, waiting for the same old big nothing
i am, i am, i am, i am you
i am, i am, i am, i am nothing like you
i knew when i was a kid, all caught up in, and
i’m coming down now
coming down from that cloud
slowing down now
ready to take it easy
Carradine, i’m easy
Keith Carradine, i’m easy
godfuckingdammit, it’s easy
godfuckingdammit, it’s easy
i am, i
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