you’ve come so far chasing the blur try not to fall apart with a heart so full of love new year, new year nothing to fear you know what you know you know what you know new year, new year nothing left to hear power through know what you know the smog can be too much, but then again you wouldn’t mind falling from a mountain jump on in, the water is warm and the shock is only for a moment don’t dare give up something’s bound to happen don’t care too much, so much not everything’s your fucking problem new year, new year nothing to fear you know what you know you know what you know new year, new year nothing left to hear power through know what you know the smog can be too much, but then again you wouldn’t mind falling from a mountain jump on in, the water is warm and the shock is only for a moment starry eyes make mirages of harlots on the desert lines new year, new year nothing to fear you know what you know don’t dare give up something’s bound to happen don’t care too much, so much not everything’s your fucking problem don’t dare give up something’s bound to happen don’t care too much not everything’s your fucking problem new year, new year nothing to fear you know what you know you know what you know new year, new year nothing left to hear power through know what you know

stars shoot some fade away i’ve been thinking about the very things that got me thinking of when i thought of them in the first place as the days go by and i think more of you and the shit that can go wrong cars go by a beacon scanning through the living room as i fall asleep on your chest the phone company they’ve set up x-mas lights down the main street the blue ones always seemed so peaceful to me and it snowed last week first of December and the first time that we could see the dust on the evergreens around our town our town, our town dead star crash into the sea i’ve been thinking about that very thing that got me re-thinking everything i needed to be as work gets hard and i think more and more about the use all that shit that’s so much, as long as its with you, though, it’s fine your head to mine, on the floor, sculptures solidified in the bathroom as we watch eye to eye the bath bomb fall apart into our ocean the phone company they’ve set up x-mas lights down the main street the blue ones always seemed so peaceful to me and it snowed last week first of December and the first time that we could see the dust on the evergreens around our town our town, our town

how many holes ’til you get a new pair where the cash flows depends on the day and they’re greedy, greedy, greedy, greedy about everything you stand for, stand for, stand for save for love, they just don’t get it studs on the boots, leg propped to the wall my head down in prayer, light a Hays code fag 9 to 5, 5 to 1, 1 to 9, having fun in another song akin’ing to Pacino not Tony Montana, no, i’m lost in the ether i’m losing myself in the dance, dance i’m a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand i’m a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand how many holes ’til you get a new pair where the cash flows depends on the day and they’re greedy, greedy, greedy about everything, everything, everything we stand for, stand for, stand for save for love, save for love studs on the boots, leg propped to the wall my head down in prayer, light a Hays code fag 9 to 5, 5 to 1, 1 to 9, having fun in another song akin’ing to Pacino not Tony Montana, no, i’m lost in the ether i’m losing myself in the dance i’ve lost my way to the plan never have i ever been my own leader i’m a trick, trick, tricky i’m a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand i’m a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand a trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, tricky one to understand trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick, trick studs on the boots, leg propped to the wall my head down in prayer, lighting a Hays code fag studs on the boots, leg propped to the wall my head down in prayer, lighting a Hays code fag

i’m going to university worked all summer just to pay for this suit and tie can’t play the part they wanted from me on the evening bus ready to fly arrive to the dormitory tomcats with their days outnumbered in a lifeline smash cans of beer and energy drinks ambiance of ‘The Office’ on repeat and i’m trying be quiet with a book to read trying to fit in like we always have approaching midnight and i like it quiet with a book to read trying to fit in like i always have professors seem to have checked out lessons learned long ago with holes not figured out crashes through the hallways and in the yards an approaching tide and it makes it all quiet with your own brain humming ambiance of the self without a beat trying to fit in like we always have pushing midnight and i like it quiet with a book to read trying to fit in like i always have nobody’s a bigger piece of shit than the dean couldn’t bring myself to attend all the ceremonies it’s Ohio, crica ’51, and all of a sudden, what the hell, he’s onto me bombing all my dreams war drums are slowly revving tempo of the ripples of every butterfly crushed in a long lifetime it’s a type of invincibility, on the borderline, it’s soothing me and i’m trying be quiet with a book to read trying to fit in like we always have approaching midnight and i like it quiet with a book to read trying to fit in like i always have and i’m like, trying to fit in, trying to fit in and i’m like, trying to fit in, trying to fit in this is a crazy fucking dream hiccuped by the other dreamers living like a temporary brother and i’m like, trying to fit in, trying to fit in trying to fit in, trying to fit in, trying to fit in

she looks out the window into the great beautiful nothing cigarette in hand, unlit ash watching the snow fall more than she’s seen in her lifetime waiting for the signs in the skies, not knowing the lie onto the hopeful something sublime teletubbies on the tv, in her son’s bed, in a hug watching the sunrise with a smile (and she said) i never asked for this you deserve better than this i can’t bear the ugly things this world will do to you i never asked for this cage and you deserve to unleash your rage i never asked for this and you, my love, deserve better, better, better than this better, better, better than this they look off their porches into the great big beautiful nothing cigarettes in hand, gold leaf from their land waiting for the signs in the skies, not knowing the lie into the unknown where fear lies into the unknown where fear lies hum, crossed signal on the tv, dawn of the dead to us all watching the sun take its last dive i never asked for this you deserve better than this i can’t bear the ugly things this world will do to you i never asked for this cage and you deserve to unleash your rage i never asked for this and you, my love, deserve better, better, better than this better, better, better than this you know how it feels to never attain a dream, don’t you i said, you know a lot of how it feels to never attain a dream, don’t you i said, you know a lot of how it feels to never attain a dream, don’t you they took your soul away, made you a soldier, can’t hide from the killer they took your soul away, made you a soldier, can’t hide from the killer they took your soul away, made you a soldier, can’t hide from the killer i brought you into this world, i brought you into this world brought you into this world i never asked for this and you, my love, deserve better, better, better

Halley, baby on the frontline pop that ass to the drill go in for the kill Halley, baby drip to the floor as above so below shake the world ’til it moves, moves moves them all moves them all moves them all moves your soul sweet, sweet, sweet angel lite-brite the night taking all their money taking all the money taking all the money taking all the money swing, swing, swing, angel move that artform taking all that money taking all the money taking all the money taking all the money Halley, baby still below, but above getting stardust off the table onto a billboard Halley, baby know your worth fortune teller just by the way you move, move, move, move moves them all moves them all moves your soul sweet, sweet, sweet angel lite-brite the night taking all their money taking all the money taking all the money taking all the money swing, swing, swing, angel move that artform taking all that money taking all the money taking all the money taking all the money Halley, baby on the frontline pop that ass to the drill go in for the kill Halley, baby drip to the floor as above so below

this light, this light of mine no longer shines no more hold on tight for a helluva ride for all of time before we took a dive into the upside down a life that we barely have anymore see the view from crimson sky no more, no more, no more it’s the only thing i’m sure of it’s the only thing i’m sure of this light, this light, this light above this light, this light, this light on and the only thing that i’m sure of the only thing i hope for is light, this light, this light this light no longer shines skylight, head on high diamond after diamond forever and more and more we took a dive into the upside down a life that we barely have anymore see the view from crimson sky no more, no more, no more it’s the only thing i’m sure of it’s the only thing i’m sure of this light, this light, this light above this light, this light, this light on and the only thing that i’m sure of the only thing i hope for is light, this light, this light above this light no longer shines

i smile, i’m high moving against the tide i’m so damn tired but i smile, i’m high this is who i’m meant to be i reminisce, jump out of time splitting before the royal high my back is on a wire but i smile, i’m high this is who i’m meant to be this is who i’m meant to be midnight in the garden of good strays chasing their tails it’s the craze of the moon intrusive thoughts of cracking teeth torrent of the chaotic mean raised in the rays of ignorance dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker i let myself fly throw me through the air like a rag doll i’m so weightless but i smile, i’m high this is who i’m meant to be i promise this with little time shooting for the finish line my back is on a wire i pay for being broke but i smile, i’m high this is who i’m meant to be this is who i’m meant to be this is who i’m meant to be this is who i’m meant to be this is who i’m meant to be dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker midnight and the garden of good strays chasing their tails it’s the craze of any cycle of the moon thoughts of cracking my teeth in a torrent of chaotic mean i bitch, i moan, i love so strong i live on and on in a thousand unclicked songs rusted bone from the brine of Ohio i live on and on in a thousand unclicked songs dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker dream weaver, make-believer, breath taker i bitch, i moan, i love so strong i live on and on in a thousand unclicked songs rusted bone from the brine of Ohio ricochet, ricochet

Britney was a girl living out of the wood the roads covered in gravel from a century ago when her mamaw, half-German, supposedly settled fine she now has a thing growing in her 13 year old womb the father’s from the city, getting into trouble in the hood our last names shared the same letter so we sat next to each other but sixth grade it already so hard so when she left i lost my charm i’m a joker wild i am a motherless child i’m born in the free ah, but i don’t got anything and some won’t understand how the world can be so different in just one night, for all your life take the way they look at you and there’s something off it’s not quite like it was before you came out Mrs. Henry, i’ve already wrote you a song but fifth grade seemed so easy at the time now when i look back on you, i realize it was pretty fucking hard i often think about the power of the pen how you made the class so bored but there was this brain of yours on display in your stories of whimsy and anglo dreams about the history you made to fiction and how i’m now doing the same dame thing the Rodriguez girls moved into the trailer park their mom didn’t work, she stayed in her bed in the dark and they invited me over to watch Daria and Scream and i told them i wanted to make movies and they said ‘let’s do that then’ so i got a camcorder from the pantry at my place and we made a movie called ‘The Club’ about a killer woman killing for jewelry and that summer between fourth and fifth grade they were gone by the first day of school i’m a joker wild i am a motherless child some won’t understand how the world can be so different in just one night, for all your life (it seems bright, but then you) take the way they look at you and there’s something off it’s not quite like it was before you came out Shelby, her dad was doing his time and she’d talk about her therapist as if we all had our own on the line while i was in my own world during school, after lunch, she was there in the library in the chair next to me at the computer station ‘Brokeback Mountain’ in my stack of DVDs she said, ‘hey, i know you’re gay’ and i said no ‘yeah okay, bro’, that’s what she said and then she started sitting at that computer next to me not talking a whole lot week after week but she said once, ‘you’re a good friend to me’ yeah, freshman year, before we could share our live feeds all we’re gonna be some won’t understand how the world can be so different in just one night, for all your life take the way they look at you and there’s something off it’s not quite like it was before you came out trip on their words and it’s like you can’t get to know them run back into them and it’s like they never forgot you and it’s because you’ve got this fucking neon sign flashing this label as a halo over the top of your head some won’t understand how the world can be so different in just one night, for all your life some won’t understand take the way they look at you and there’s something off it’s not quite like it was before you came out some won’t understand how the world can be so different in just one night, for all your life (it seems bright, but then you) take the way they look at you and there’s something off it’s not quite like it was before you came out trip on their words and it’s like you can’t get to know them run back into them and it’s like they never forgot you and it’s because you’ve got this fucking neon sign flashing this label as a halo over the top of your head